Christmas!!

Been making christmas meal's dessert for NOvelty's Dinner for wholeday
I go Sushi session with my sis too..it was great!! Sushi is really nice XD

Went out to Novelty with mom at night..
Ate some food...salty and sweet

HOping to go for movie..NObody wanna go =/
Back to home..Chat with Jichan alan and MIn wei..
it was great tho
Hahaha..this is basically I did during christmas eve..
what else gonna be on Christmas day??
I think its gonna be same..boring again >.<

不说话

作了一个梦
我看见你
你看见我
可是我们都不说话
在梦里
我依然遵守约定

Absent Minded

SOmetimes We are being super absent minded
For example..we might forget to zip our jeans after we wear it
And went out for the entire day without noticing it >///<
We might go to the fridge..and forget what exactly we wanted to get actually
We will forget to turn off the stove eventhough we tell us MUST rmb it
We even will forget our close one's birthday

But on the other way round
Our mind is being super memorable sometime
We can rmb when did somebody hurt u
We can rmb when did someone had said something bad about u
We can rmb what is the sweetest moment ever
We can rmb cleary how we meet somebody
HOw we success..how we laugh..and how we enjoy life

Sometimes when we are trying so hard to rmb something..We may forget
BUt sometimes..eventhough we do not purposely rmb anything..
Those will never be forget =)

Empty House =(

I used to dislike ppl come to my house
Thinking they are gonna ruin my peacefulness
When I came back from meditation
Im already be prepare to face "My cousinSSSS are at my home"
Prepare for disastersss..
BUt...Slowly i realise..my home become more lively
Sometimes it is funny to talk with Angie
and My sis
ANd I am super miss the time right now =(
They all gone la
And another cousin..name ah hong
A very good boy..
eventho he is only 12
But he doesnt behave like 12 ATALL
MAture..good boy..and hv the initiative to help everything
I really got no idea why his step mother is being such a bitch
Hit him!! pinch him! Really WTF ><
I do hope he can stay at my home..I hope to treat him like my brother
but he choose to go KL with his elder brother..
So hope he will be fine =)


Sch gonna start soon...
Which mean sis and bro gonna go to sch everyday and leave me alobne at home =(

Sei le..feeling useless already.. arrrrrrrr

STUPID CHEESHYYIIIIII

I had lost something very super damn freaking important tonight
super duper depress RIGHT NOW
I wanna cry..but I cant =(
HOld myself toooo hard..
That I swallow my tears..
I comfort myself..Eventhou I lost it
I still hv some in other place..
SO... Argh...
I feel sorry so lost it =( as i Promise myself to keep them very well
arrrr...
damn.......

The Higher U climb
Its gonna hurt more
Once u fell down

Resistant to change

The longer I stay at home
The more i don feel like going anywhere
Not even KL @.@
IF anyone could offer me a good job at sdk..I will love to stay..
Got car,got house..got food..I dont hv to worry at all
And my family is here..And the best if i can get a sdk husband
Then Im gonna stick with my family all the time @.@
This is nto good! Shy yi need exposure la..So anyway..I still need to go KL
Just the matter of..where am I gonna settle
BUt I really miss Peiling so much..
Everytime wan talk to her...I mean face to face
SHe sure at UK.... @.@ which make me miss her even more after I msn with her =.=
I go no idea how come no matter where I am..
I always miss her =.= too bad..she is not a man wakaka

Finally I met Tay =)
Glad tht he is doing great..
And his gf penny too..
Went Karaoke with JAckson, Ah tan, Ah tsen and tay's couple
Finally I went to encore =.=
I nv know sandakan karaoke is like tht
well not really bad..at least i haad fun with my fren
And I feel excited that Calixta is coming back

After I came back from Encore..
I chat with peiling..
Two empty ppl..talk to each other like blur blur at 1st..but now ok liao la
Cause been mengkaji those Christmas Dessert recipe

They all look very the nice ><
ANd I am hungry now><

Felt weird in a sudden
Like all my body filled with emptiness..Maybe peiling spread virus to me =.=
Feel heavy and like do not know why m i sitting here =(
Thts weird..I'd been controlling myself very well
Thikn its because its really so late now..and quiet

Good night =)

Laziness

Started to feel really piss off
Ask them to wash dishes
NObody care
Wipe the table
NObody move
Do some cleaning
Ignore me
Help while preparing dinner
See only
=.=
Nvm its okay..This make me realise
I used to be one of them too
Hahahaha So Ihv to improve myself instead of blaming the others =)
U guys will understand one day once u get into the real world XD

After so long of waiting
He finally came back
SHe was really happy to see him
yet doesnt really feel like seeeing him
Because she understand the consequences for seeing him
She actually nv thought he will contact her when he came back
Thats makes her feel a lil bit happy
yet uneasy
Theres always hving contradiction in this matter

Her mind actually keep reminding her..No,Not to meet him
To avoid any inconvinience for him,for us
But she will nv say no to him
And they met..and talk about lots of stuff
She knew more about him
And even more concern than b4
This is one of the consequnces she tried to avoid
and mission failed again

She was not able to contact him while she was away for 10days
Wrote down all the word she wannted to tell him
But she knew she will never give the paper to him
And thought of MIA this time
After she calm her mind a lil bit
He reached her again

WHen she went home, they met again
talk again..She felt really happy and even more uneasy
Because this is not how it suppose to be before all things clear and done
ANd finally He told her..
What she'd been waiting for
him to being honest
She feel glad that he did not lied to her
eventhough thats really a heartbreaking answer
But she was fine and will be fine

And she want him to know
She still keeping her words
very firmly
Eventhough she do not want to see him get hurt
But in case he did..
She is there to listen to him
anytime =)
Please be happy

起初由于好奇心,农夫种了一颗树在庭院
经过慢慢栽培.树长大了
这时候,农夫开始对花有兴趣
种起花来了
有一天,花死了,农夫想起庭院的那颗树
便为那颗即将死去的树,施肥灌溉
树再一次,精神起来
就当树快要开花结果时
农夫又毅然离去,选择了种另一种特别的花
树又黯然失色了
就这样,每当树差不多凋零时
农夫总会及时回过头来,施肥灌溉
直到有一天,就算树累了,想放弃,却发现根太深了
直到有一天,农夫想把树拔起时,也发现,他已习惯树的存在
但依然难以悉心照料

请不要一直注意着会飘走的云朵
云朵背后
有一颗星星
你看见了吗?
云会飘走,然后散去
星星却一直在那里
风再大,依然是在同一个位置

Recent Me =)

Its already two month I came back to Sandakan
Lots of people keep asking me..Wei shy yi u working already?
I am so sorry to tell u..Im still shaking my leg at home >.<
But thanks god I am not being useless at all
I went to shop help my mom almost everyday..
SO that I am not stay at home all the time..that will really make me feel useless ;)
And we always went jogging..good for health!
Bad thing is..I gain 5kg since i came back @.@
thats way too much and i got big tummy!!
good thing is..My relationship with my youngest sister..seems to get realyl close..
Maybe she is the only one still allow me to hold her hand anytime =)
chubby and warm hand!! And I love the way she laugh! Like mad girl eventho this may scared ppl out there..but I love it!

Went to thailand for family trip for a week
I t was really great with family beside me
Enjoy it so much and I am glad that shin yi was with us too
One family 'chai chai zeng zeng"

After I came back from Thailand..
I hv to go to meditation @.@ with my mom for 10days
Thats really seems like some punishment for me
Because concentration is needed in this program
ANd lots of stuff is in my heart and mind at tht time
NO entertainment,no mobile,no eating after 12pm..etc etc seems to be hard for me
But I still overcame it..meditation..Iwould say
it makes me peaceful..feel calm..and think b4 i act
its a really great lesson anyway =)

My cousins came from KL finally reach sdk already
Eventho I am really afriad of noise!
BUt at leas they make my home abit lifely than usual

Friends like jackson and ah tan is back
we went dinner,movie and sports
to keep occupied! because I am sick of stayig alone at home
this makes me think of everytime when I back to sandakan last time
I try my best to not letting ppl know I am back
Because i wanted to stay at home badly
Now...I wish to go out as much as I could,with frens or family
At fill in the blank of my days =)

Actually I still hv lots of mission nv do
such as
Driving License
A job!
Christmas meal for novelty
these is really important but i got no motivation to do =(

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友你們可能相愛過,
你們也可能喜歡著彼此,但是,為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起?

也許,
他為了朋友之間的義氣,不能追你.
也許,
為了顧及家人的意見,你們沒有在一起.
也許,
為了出國深造,他沒有要你等他.
也許,
你們相遇太早,還不懂得珍惜對方.
也許,
你們相遇太晚,你們身邊已經有了另一個人.
也許,
你回頭太遲,對方已不再等待.
也許,
你們彼此在捉摸對方的心,而遲遲無法跨出界線.

不過,即使你們沒在一起,你們還是保持了朋友的關係.
但是你們心底清楚,對這個人,你比朋友還多了一份關心.

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街,你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友.

他有喜歡的人,你口頭上會幫他追,心裏卻不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到.

他遇到困難時,你會盡你所能的幫他,不會計較誰又欠了誰.

男女朋友吃醋了,你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友,但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定.

每個人這輩子,心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友,很矛盾的行為.

一開始你不甘心只做朋友的,但久了,突然發現這樣最好.
你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。

你寧願做他的朋友,彼此不會吃醋,才可以真的無所不談.

特別是這樣,你還是知道,他永遠會關心你的.

做不成男女朋友,當他那個特別的朋友,有什麼不好呢?