Safety Box Of Happiness; Disposal Bin of Sadness

Love it~

2010-10-07T16:05:00.001+01:00

Love it~ by cadeeyi featuring a leaves ring

2010-09-17T06:50:00.002+01:00

nguaaaa how can you not fall in love with thesee =] =]

should do what is right

2010-04-19T18:39:00.002+01:00

been thinking what should i do
finally i gave myself a conclusion
i really do not want to get myself into any mess anymore
just be clear about what is in my heart.. what i really want
what is the right one im actually searching for
keep reminding myself.. I am good with myself and my job and my life
And I am feeling content with it.. so be rational =]

stress=motivation=move

2010-04-19T07:29:00.002+01:00

that day was my one month anniversary in super dining
and it was my performace review with managers too
been told that they expect me to learn even more faster
they said i actually can do it
so i was actually thinking..why the hell am I feeling so comfortable in this condition
that I am not forcing my self,pushing myself to learn faster
I actually should take up all the initiative to learn and absorb and grow
but i am still.. enjoy my everyday..ah cadee pls move
I really feel stress up abit after the review..
I can see the future opportunity..
Is the matter of how hard i work and how smart i communicate
thank god fellow collegue/friends are really nice to me
but how long am i gonna stay in this peaceful environment before get transfered to other outlet..which are place that I hv to adapt to again T.T
well... move ur assssss la chui c yi =]

I used to think about you everyday I wake up
But i think about my work even more now..hahaha
but still.. argh

2010-04-09T19:14:00.002+01:00

had a great night dancing
dance like i nv dance b4..dance like this will be the last time I can dance
feeling stress relieved...
actually it was abit too short..some assh*** ruin the night
other than that everybody was nice and fun haha
sitting there so quiet 1stly..
after tony and wayne came.. the night is on..ahahaha
i saw cecelia fuyoh good dancer XD XD
i was abit paiseh at 1st..but ah wayne drag me out LOL
u will never believe he is already 35+ but still berstamina
and look like 27 only LOL
Patrick is really funny.. he can dance even everybody were still sitting there XD
feel sorry to sam..did not really say anything more to him eventho its actually his farewell party.. ><
anyway... low stamina working today..
haha luckily in nt drunk last night or else i will be like zombie today
and Im gonna sleep with air con tonight!!wheeyyy~~
need more night out like this >-)

2010-04-01T17:34:00.002+01:00

been holding myself for many days...
Feeling better and getting better I actually thought
Because been so busy for the past few days.
Lots of customer that I don hv empty time to think too much
And unfortunately..Its too free today
Nothing really much to do
And my hand was too itchy..
I should not read the blog and I am now worrying =.=shit
Haha I thought I m getting less concern already
but when its not busy today
Lots of thing... come to my stupid mind
worry abit of course.. wondering hey how are u doing blah blah blah
aiya chee shy yi..u told urself to let go isnt it..
hold urself more la pls pls pls

why me? argh T.T

2010-04-01T17:28:00.002+01:00

If the news is real
which mean I am going to transfer to another outlet due to lack of manpower =.=
what the fuckk honestly this is what i feel when my friend told me bout it
I wish it was just a april fool joke
but dim gai everyone seems like know bout it?
and hell yea if really unlucky..I will be going to Sri Hartamas the busiest outlet
If yes..Pls don make it too tragedic
I am worry bout the hostel..the people..and thr working evncironment~
this outlet...from opening will be busy until gate close =.=
My feet..gonna break off i guess
I actually feel..stresseddddddd T.T
I just get along very well with people in Kura =(
And now I probably hv to leave...
T.T why me?

purpose..reason..and direction

2010-03-29T10:06:00.002+01:00

I need a reason... to stay
I need a puspose to keep moving
I need a direction..to where I am heading

I am fine..doing well with my job
But Im still thinking..What do I actually wanna achieve?
What is my purpose in here?
What am I going to do..to get what I want? to be at where I wanted to be

I hv to set a goal for myself
I hv to sacrifice time..personal time..
To get what I want.. which sounds quite sad but this is what i'd chosen

So cadee..pls..pls.. always rmb to motivate urself
until U know..what u want..so that u are able to keep moving forward

HOMESICK

2010-03-21T07:31:00.002Z

Never been that homesick before...
1st time ever in my life =(
I even think of get myself an air ticket..
back home in the morning and come back at night =.=
serious right? what the fark is going on with me?
Since when I become so weak
Is not about the tireness of work
Is about the time comsuming..I hv no personal time
I don even hv the fking free time to put lotion!
crap yea?!
Food around One U are damn expensive too!
I hv no idea where can i get food..nice and cheap
I feel hungry so often... and yes hell my gastric isnt feeling well
argh.. what can I do is only to hypnotize myself..
I need experience..I need money..I need future..SO I am here

2010-03-16T16:54:00.002Z

first day of work...
collegue pretty nice =] thank god..
work are not that difficult as i thought..probably its gonna be tougher soon
the worse thing is that im gonna spend my whole day in kura..
the 3hour spilt doesn give me any point to walk back home for a nap
laptop at kura will be fine..and a good lunch
so its gonna be my 2nd home from now on
no matter what i hv to love my job

i really had a bad start on the 1st day =(
i am madly sick...keep shivering due to coldness
i feel hugnry but i dont hv any appetite to eat
my feet was aching..my back was aching
and dammit it i just realise i left my medicine at my friend place
which mean... probably tomorrow is not the time to get well yet >.< pk liao this time

i feel like collapse for several time liao..
my eye was half closed..
argh...thank god i back room safely
but I really need someone to talk to
haha its weird i know..but evertyime when i feel weak
i need someone to talk to me..cheer me up abit at least =(

SIngapore Trip

2010-03-15T04:11:00.003Z

wheey Finally i got something to write on my lil pretty bloggy
Went to singapore trip with peiling to pay a visit to alan
>.< actually it was actually a job finding trip.but since
me and peiling got a job in the same company (i cant imagine how lucky am i)
and I am way too happy that to stay back in msia for some reason like my sis..my friends and parents =]
So the singapore trip will be a short escape..and real relaxing VACATION
ops i know i'd been relax for too long about half a year liao
actually the only thing i feel excited is to see alan chua wei keong (he probably will kill me for mentioning his full name)
it been almost two year we never meet each other..hahaha
this buddy really doing well in his career..i feel super envy when I was listening to him about his life and stuff
my mission..is to defeat him LOL

this is terrible...the 4days we were at sg...we eat japanese food everyday >.<
but oh well we are enjoying it especially the dessert!!
I feel the bliss when i saw the red bean tong yuen green tea ice cream..haha
the zoo was real fun..i used to hate zoo..because its boring
but singapore zoo is a real attractive zoo... =] i saw polar bear and kangaroo!!
so whats left? kaola bear...the last thing i will like to c is laola bear..hehehe
sentosa island was sucks..the view..the place..the scene..the service i give 5marks over 5
but the fees..entrance for attraction...food and stuf..i give them 1 over 5
conclusion is only if u are rich..sentosa will be a nice place to go..if u are not..photo taking will be great too =]

i found a good song-everytime you go

2010-03-01T16:12:00.001Z

It starts with a picture
And it sits in your frame
And we part with a letter
And it ends in my name
It starts with forever
And it ends with a touch
And I know that you're clever
And I don't ask for much

Maybe we forgot all the things were when are together

Wake me up
Wake me up
Stop my fall
Everytime you go
Tape me up
Then break me up
Ever so gently
When I'm my weakest
Then it's not so hard
Everytime you go

You said I'm arresting
You said I had heat
I really tohught that we would go further
The second time we'd meet
Now I'm tired of trying to keep you
All I want to do is sleep
But perhaps when I'm sleeping
You'll get back on your feet

Maybe we forgot all the things we were when we were together

Wake me up
Wake me up
Stop my fall
Everytime you go
Tape me up
Then break me up
Ever so gently
When I'm my weakest
Then it's not so hard
Every time you go

Maybe we forgot, are we awake, or not?
Maybe we forgot, are we awake, or not?
Maybe we forgot, are we awake, or not?
Maybe we forgot

Wake me up
Wake me up
Stop my fall
Everytime you go
Tape me up
Then break me up
Ever so gently
When I'm my weakest
Then it's not so hard
Everytime you go
Everytime you go

Stay or leave???

2010-02-24T01:00:00.002Z

Am struggling to work in KL or Singapore..
I feel like I really wanna run away..
As far as I can..
BUt I miss my fam and friends..The furthest I can go in SG
As it still close to Malaysia..
Since when I started to feel I want to stay at where which nearer to my home
Oh ya..because I'd been staying home for too long =(
Actually it is very obvious..NO matter where Im going to be
Things may end up the same
but..something might not gonna change too.. gerammmmnyaaaaaa.....
whatever..I don care..
U offer me a good job..I will work for u
No matter where will be =)

Why Blog?

2010-02-24T00:41:00.002Z

Why blog?
I am not able to type everything in my mind anymore
why blog?
That I need to think again and again about what can or cant be written

2010-02-16T17:14:00.000Z

wondering when can i see you again......................
=(

噩梦

2010-02-11T02:38:00.002Z

我习惯梦见被追杀
到处躲藏
很没安全感的梦，到睡醒仍心有余悸
我习惯梦见周围充满了死尸血流满河
那样让我很不安
但这两个月最常梦见的
使我一直以为无所谓的
却变成是我最不想触及的
睡醒后的失落
足以影响我一整天的心情
来了，走了，看到了，却刻意沉默着，说话了，却刻意逃避着
明白了，却仍然不接受着
不要再来我的梦里了.....

不要让未来的你讨厌现在的自己

2010-02-01T15:43:00.001Z

不要让未来的你讨厌现在的自己
可以学习的，尽量不要错过
不要等到以后想学习，已经太迟
常常反省自己的态度，想向以后自己回头看，是否感觉幼稚？无知？
想骂人时，真得有必要吗？以后看看自己，或许会觉得滑稽呢
时时静下来想想
如果说你现在习惯意，玩电脑，游戏，夜店玩乐，抽烟酗酒
不愿意改变，不愿意为了健康和关心你的人反省
而停止
30年后的泥，依然可以继续电脑，游戏，玩乐吗？
到那时候，你想改变，已经太迟了
年纪大了，跟不上脚步，脱节了，越来越偏激

蔡康永一个做人原则我很欣赏
‘永远不要让自己习惯在某一种社群，活动，环境‘
人一旦习惯了，就不会想要改变
很多人不认同，觉得安稳，是一种幸福
当然这是一种=）
可是安稳中，也可以学习新的事物充实自己
交新的朋友扩大圈子
多听听别人的谈话，或多或少都会对自己有帮助
多读读书，学习比我们厉害的人的脑子里，装了些什么

对自己有目标
有目标也需要行动来实行
光想的话，梦里也能有继续
只有做，失败了至少尝试过=）

为世界哀悼

2010-01-21T15:18:00.002Z

海地大地震
掠夺了多少人的性命
在这个贫穷的国家
医疗瓦解
交通瓦解
水电中断
宛如人间炼狱
7万人尸体,经已因为害怕瘟疫散播
烧掉了
剩下还没发现的尸体
据说有20万
多少小孩失去父母?
多少父母失去小孩?
多少老人失去家园?

整个国家,成为了暴徒掠夺打抢的世界
弱肉强食,是每天在报纸看到的画面
无助的老人,躺在地尚被老鼠啃噬等死
伤者必须忍受在没有麻醉药的情况下截肢
医疗人员需要在只有蜡烛,设备不齐全下动刀
一篇篇的报道,都让我湿了眼眶
无辜的人们,为何得承受那样的痛苦?
我才明白很多在电影里看到的
确确实实发生了
我们需要感恩
更需要为他们祈祷
若有途径支援帮助,就算是一分钱
也是他们莫大的帮助
当我发现我曾经认识一位来自海地的叔叔
他心地善良
为了家人在美国打拼
我为他感到伤心
希望他的家人没事才好

亦开始慢慢有许多的马后炮
估计着哪个地方
近年来会发生海啸地震
姑且不论是否马后炮之言
其实实际上地球已经病的严重
天灾接着就是人祸

我们在这儿平安
并不会是永远
时刻提醒自己
要惜福
更应该帮助该帮助的

Such a mess..and sad..and heart breaking

2010-01-20T03:43:00.002Z

打开报纸
光是自己‘公司’的新闻
就已经够‘光彩’了
因为一个字眼，搞得‘各部门’不合
一间公司若不上下一心，如何团结？如何进步？
显然，很多人，还是在退步中
到别人的‘部门’到处破坏
更显龌龊无聊
这些举止，为你们带来了什么？除了越来越乱
你们得到了什么？
显然，脑袋已经退化到用屁股思考了
我无奈，更心痛
身在那样的一家公司里

什么？海外员工不能留在前线
莫名其妙，于理不合
人家公司花那么多钱把人家担保过来
培养了那么多年，你一个老大说要改制度
就改了
每年都有不一样的说辞
每次都是总觉得不够好
结果老大的行政越来越荒谬
月薪比任何人高的‘外地员工’，得洗碗碟去了

还有，人家辛辛苦苦年了那么多年的书
你老大说不承认就不承认？
你让那些家里没什么钱的，进退两难
出国，负担不起
留下，能干什么？
请老大您三思

公司人才流失，就是因为我们老大
老大的员工们
统统都是不懂得珍惜
不懂得进步
享受退步却浑然不察觉的笨蛋
察觉了又如何？
不改进，依然一样
没用

爱不单行

2010-01-20T03:25:00.002Z

爱只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人，也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下

爱是不可数的吗？
为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒

告诉我爱不单行相信它

哪个男人不偷腥？

2010-01-20T03:09:00.003Z

近来听说很多是非
也不全是是非
也听说了一些确实发生过的
如何肯定确实？
因为我当年类似亲耳听到
是谁，我不便说
现在，又有另一个例子
让我亲眼看到
半夜单独的？不难让我想入非非
因为确实他们夫妻关系有点看似变质
其实也不关我的事
出于关心也好，什么都好
也不论到我来管
只希望真得是自己小人心

做出这种事情
有时不全是犯错的人犯错
事情是3方面的
女的捉不住男人的心，没有努力用心沟通
也或许种种令人讨厌的唠叨
等等，然人感觉厌烦。。身为女人，我或许不该那么说
可是人跟人相处，学问太大，大到关系密切的，有时不容许犯错，不容许过渡沉默
有时沉默，使你认为的冷静，其实不见得最好
处理不当，分分钟变忧郁自闭
全盘摊开来说，一针见血的，或许有效，也或许伤人，因人而异
耐心处理，又害怕另一半以为你太大方慷慨
当你没道

身为男人的，当然有错
尤其有小孩的
更是错错错
不应该做出这些会导致家变的事

第3者有没有错？当然有
什么爱上了不顾一切，在这时显得狗屁一通
莫名其妙
或许我偏激，或许这是没发生我身上我不懂
但是别人有家庭，就应该适可而止

虽然我认同，人在不同的时候会爱上不同的人
但请理智

2010-01-06T11:48:00.003Z

Phew...
Alot of things come to my mind to write
And I couldnt think of them once I open my blog
Since when my mind started to get empty..
NO idea on writting anymore
Not even my daily life update will do
Started to worry about am I getting to have dull life???
That is why I cant write... =(

anyway...I just cooked chicken celery tonight
And It is really so damn awful..
I should not put egg into the chicken..
the taste is weird and the egg caused my whole plate of celery..
un-eatable..due to ugliness
Shame on me!!!!

Christmas!!

2009-12-25T04:01:00.004Z

Been making christmas meal's dessert for NOvelty's Dinner for wholeday
I go Sushi session with my sis too..it was great!! Sushi is really nice XD

Went out to Novelty with mom at night..
Ate some food...salty and sweet

HOping to go for movie..NObody wanna go =/
Back to home..Chat with Jichan alan and MIn wei..
it was great tho
Hahaha..this is basically I did during christmas eve..
what else gonna be on Christmas day??
I think its gonna be same..boring again >.<

不说话

2009-12-24T02:17:00.001Z

作了一个梦
我看见你
你看见我
可是我们都不说话
在梦里
我依然遵守约定

Absent Minded

2009-12-23T11:47:00.002Z

SOmetimes We are being super absent minded
For example..we might forget to zip our jeans after we wear it
And went out for the entire day without noticing it >///<
We might go to the fridge..and forget what exactly we wanted to get actually
We will forget to turn off the stove eventhough we tell us MUST rmb it
We even will forget our close one's birthday

But on the other way round
Our mind is being super memorable sometime
We can rmb when did somebody hurt u
We can rmb when did someone had said something bad about u
We can rmb what is the sweetest moment ever
We can rmb cleary how we meet somebody
HOw we success..how we laugh..and how we enjoy life

Sometimes when we are trying so hard to rmb something..We may forget
BUt sometimes..eventhough we do not purposely rmb anything..
Those will never be forget =)

Empty House =(

2009-12-21T15:46:00.003Z

I used to dislike ppl come to my house
Thinking they are gonna ruin my peacefulness
When I came back from meditation
Im already be prepare to face "My cousinSSSS are at my home"
Prepare for disastersss..
BUt...Slowly i realise..my home become more lively
Sometimes it is funny to talk with Angie
and My sis
ANd I am super miss the time right now =(
They all gone la
And another cousin..name ah hong
A very good boy..
eventho he is only 12
But he doesnt behave like 12 ATALL
MAture..good boy..and hv the initiative to help everything
I really got no idea why his step mother is being such a bitch
Hit him!! pinch him! Really WTF ><
I do hope he can stay at my home..I hope to treat him like my brother
but he choose to go KL with his elder brother..
So hope he will be fine =)

Sch gonna start soon...
Which mean sis and bro gonna go to sch everyday and leave me alobne at home =(

Sei le..feeling useless already.. arrrrrrrr

STUPID CHEESHYYIIIIII

2009-12-21T15:43:00.002Z

I had lost something very super damn freaking important tonight
super duper depress RIGHT NOW
I wanna cry..but I cant =(
HOld myself toooo hard..
That I swallow my tears..
I comfort myself..Eventhou I lost it
I still hv some in other place..
SO... Argh...
I feel sorry so lost it =( as i Promise myself to keep them very well
arrrr...
damn.......

2009-12-16T12:16:00.001Z

The Higher U climb
Its gonna hurt more
Once u fell down

Resistant to change

2009-12-14T19:25:00.003Z

The longer I stay at home
The more i don feel like going anywhere
Not even KL @.@
IF anyone could offer me a good job at sdk..I will love to stay..
Got car,got house..got food..I dont hv to worry at all
And my family is here..And the best if i can get a sdk husband
Then Im gonna stick with my family all the time @.@
This is nto good! Shy yi need exposure la..So anyway..I still need to go KL
Just the matter of..where am I gonna settle
BUt I really miss Peiling so much..
Everytime wan talk to her...I mean face to face
SHe sure at UK.... @.@ which make me miss her even more after I msn with her =.=
I go no idea how come no matter where I am..
I always miss her =.= too bad..she is not a man wakaka

Finally I met Tay =)
Glad tht he is doing great..
And his gf penny too..
Went Karaoke with JAckson, Ah tan, Ah tsen and tay's couple
Finally I went to encore =.=
I nv know sandakan karaoke is like tht
well not really bad..at least i haad fun with my fren
And I feel excited that Calixta is coming back

After I came back from Encore..
I chat with peiling..
Two empty ppl..talk to each other like blur blur at 1st..but now ok liao la
Cause been mengkaji those Christmas Dessert recipe

They all look very the nice ><
ANd I am hungry now><

Felt weird in a sudden
Like all my body filled with emptiness..Maybe peiling spread virus to me =.=
Feel heavy and like do not know why m i sitting here =(
Thts weird..I'd been controlling myself very well
Thikn its because its really so late now..and quiet

Good night =)

Laziness

2009-12-12T13:16:00.001Z

Started to feel really piss off
Ask them to wash dishes
NObody care
Wipe the table
NObody move
Do some cleaning
Ignore me
Help while preparing dinner
See only
=.=
Nvm its okay..This make me realise
I used to be one of them too
Hahahaha So Ihv to improve myself instead of blaming the others =)
U guys will understand one day once u get into the real world XD

2009-12-12T03:31:00.005Z

After so long of waiting
He finally came back
SHe was really happy to see him
yet doesnt really feel like seeeing him
Because she understand the consequences for seeing him
She actually nv thought he will contact her when he came back
Thats makes her feel a lil bit happy
yet uneasy
Theres always hving contradiction in this matter

Her mind actually keep reminding her..No,Not to meet him
To avoid any inconvinience for him,for us
But she will nv say no to him
And they met..and talk about lots of stuff
She knew more about him
And even more concern than b4
This is one of the consequnces she tried to avoid
and mission failed again

She was not able to contact him while she was away for 10days
Wrote down all the word she wannted to tell him
But she knew she will never give the paper to him
And thought of MIA this time
After she calm her mind a lil bit
He reached her again

WHen she went home, they met again
talk again..She felt really happy and even more uneasy
Because this is not how it suppose to be before all things clear and done
ANd finally He told her..
What she'd been waiting for
him to being honest
She feel glad that he did not lied to her
eventhough thats really a heartbreaking answer
But she was fine and will be fine

And she want him to know
She still keeping her words
very firmly
Eventhough she do not want to see him get hurt
But in case he did..
She is there to listen to him
anytime =)
Please be happy

2009-12-12T03:21:00.002Z

起初由于好奇心,农夫种了一颗树在庭院
经过慢慢栽培.树长大了
这时候,农夫开始对花有兴趣
种起花来了
有一天,花死了,农夫想起庭院的那颗树
便为那颗即将死去的树,施肥灌溉
树再一次,精神起来
就当树快要开花结果时
农夫又毅然离去,选择了种另一种特别的花
树又黯然失色了
就这样,每当树差不多凋零时
农夫总会及时回过头来,施肥灌溉
直到有一天,就算树累了,想放弃,却发现根太深了
直到有一天,农夫想把树拔起时,也发现,他已习惯树的存在
但依然难以悉心照料

2009-12-12T03:18:00.003Z

请不要一直注意着会飘走的云朵
云朵背后
有一颗星星
你看见了吗?
云会飘走,然后散去
星星却一直在那里
风再大,依然是在同一个位置

Recent Me =)

2009-12-12T02:54:00.003Z

Its already two month I came back to Sandakan
Lots of people keep asking me..Wei shy yi u working already?
I am so sorry to tell u..Im still shaking my leg at home >.<
But thanks god I am not being useless at all
I went to shop help my mom almost everyday..
SO that I am not stay at home all the time..that will really make me feel useless ;)
And we always went jogging..good for health!
Bad thing is..I gain 5kg since i came back @.@
thats way too much and i got big tummy!!
good thing is..My relationship with my youngest sister..seems to get realyl close..
Maybe she is the only one still allow me to hold her hand anytime =)
chubby and warm hand!! And I love the way she laugh! Like mad girl eventho this may scared ppl out there..but I love it!

Went to thailand for family trip for a week
I t was really great with family beside me
Enjoy it so much and I am glad that shin yi was with us too
One family 'chai chai zeng zeng"

After I came back from Thailand..
I hv to go to meditation @.@ with my mom for 10days
Thats really seems like some punishment for me
Because concentration is needed in this program
ANd lots of stuff is in my heart and mind at tht time
NO entertainment,no mobile,no eating after 12pm..etc etc seems to be hard for me
But I still overcame it..meditation..Iwould say
it makes me peaceful..feel calm..and think b4 i act
its a really great lesson anyway =)

My cousins came from KL finally reach sdk already
Eventho I am really afriad of noise!
BUt at leas they make my home abit lifely than usual

Friends like jackson and ah tan is back
we went dinner,movie and sports
to keep occupied! because I am sick of stayig alone at home
this makes me think of everytime when I back to sandakan last time
I try my best to not letting ppl know I am back
Because i wanted to stay at home badly
Now...I wish to go out as much as I could,with frens or family
At fill in the blank of my days =)

Actually I still hv lots of mission nv do
such as
Driving License
A job!
Christmas meal for novelty
these is really important but i got no motivation to do =(

2009-12-10T16:25:00.000Z

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友你們可能相愛過,
你們也可能喜歡著彼此,但是,為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起?

也許,
他為了朋友之間的義氣,不能追你.
也許,
為了顧及家人的意見,你們沒有在一起.
也許,
為了出國深造,他沒有要你等他.
也許,
你們相遇太早,還不懂得珍惜對方.
也許,
你們相遇太晚,你們身邊已經有了另一個人.
也許,
你回頭太遲,對方已不再等待.
也許,
你們彼此在捉摸對方的心,而遲遲無法跨出界線.

不過,即使你們沒在一起,你們還是保持了朋友的關係.
但是你們心底清楚,對這個人,你比朋友還多了一份關心.

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街,你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友.

他有喜歡的人,你口頭上會幫他追,心裏卻不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到.

他遇到困難時,你會盡你所能的幫他,不會計較誰又欠了誰.

男女朋友吃醋了,你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友,但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定.

每個人這輩子,心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友,很矛盾的行為.

一開始你不甘心只做朋友的,但久了,突然發現這樣最好.
你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。

你寧願做他的朋友,彼此不會吃醋,才可以真的無所不談.

特別是這樣,你還是知道,他永遠會關心你的.

做不成男女朋友,當他那個特別的朋友,有什麼不好呢?

2009-11-11T16:34:00.001Z

从四月说到六月
从六月等到九月
从九月等到十一月
赞叹自己竟有如此耐力
佩服自己竟然想再等到二月XD

2009-11-11T16:32:00.001Z

发现了一件事
原来我家的小孩
洗碗都不喜欢洗筷子和汤匙@.@

26th september 2009

2009-09-27T11:59:00.002+01:00

The next morning once i reach Malaysia
I came out to kl to meet up with florence and Xueling and Kok loong
It was great..to see them doing well =) bee hui looks good and shear leen looks bright..this proof tht they are hving healthy life..not like me
Pale like zombie
It probably the last time Im gonna meet florence
I gonna miss her...Florence swee yeo..who spend time with me
for the entire year..she is the one who accompany me go through many time than the others =)
we eat..we laugh..we smile..we sleep..study..take flight..cook..shop till we drop..see mr16,8,4,13 once upon a time,cheering up for basketball team..dancing on the dance floor..christmas..easter..spain..disney..graduated together and so on
I am glad to hv her in past one year..
Wondering is that gonna end? or we might continue our story furter in future
its only a small small gathering
And then I heading to Pavillion
meeting up with Beh beh and Vun fui..wheeey~!!!
I actually miss them to be honest
Is glad to see them in good condition..I mean still perfectly look..can walk can talk
Kind of worried about vunfui since i read his blog looooooong time ago
Hope to catch up abit..And i got some clue today =)
Hope both of u are alright la..
We did nothing much tho..just talk talk talk talk in pancake house
the pancake wasnt really nice..but the ice cream is good :p

Wondering when I am gonna see u guys again..
I may see Beh bBeh soon in sdk..
But vunfui will be late la..
I do hope u take care la =)
Cheer up always..Friends is always here for u :p

Heading to See my sister soon..cant wait..
But I hate the long journey which gonna take me 5hour killing me softly tenderly with =bored to dead in train @.@

so many apart in 3months..driving me crazy yet learning to be calm

2009-09-27T07:22:00.002+01:00

Leaving peiling alone in Cheltenham for two month ++
Friends leaving back to their home in June
Leaving Bham to Disney in June as well
Uncle passed away in July
After two month of happy time in disney
Leaving back to bham..Cried lots while leaving this wonderful place
Back to Peiling Place..Leave her after 3weeks
I was soo sad to leave her alone again
She seems miss me so much How i wish i can accompany her as long as i can
Meet my friend in congregation ceremony
the next day..people are leaving again...
this is real farewell..real goodbye
Wasnt feeling happy to go home yet happy to go home
Paradox killing me
Started to tell myself "cadee try to ignore the sadness of leaving and see people leaving" We need to move on dont we?

2009-09-27T07:10:00.002+01:00

She told him she will be there once upon a time
She hope to tell him once again
But she isnt that firm enough already
She do not want to let herself get hurt
While she still moving forward to reach him
Doesn afriad to hurt again
But this is not correct..at all
Doesn bring any benefit to everyone
SO she have to move on
BUt still..decided to keep her words..will be there

I never know

2009-09-27T07:02:00.002+01:00

Never know this is how i feel when i see you
Unexpectedly being not myself
I know it wasnt what it suppose to be
So I'll leave it
Just leave to how it suppose to be
So that thing will not get worse because of me
I am glad that I make it..to not scaring u again =]

What happen In Disney =)

2009-09-27T05:58:00.003+01:00

This is a place..I love so much
This is a place..where dream come true
This is a place..U see people dreams come true
This is a place..tears me up with firework and parade
This is a place..I met great people
This is a place..I will never wanted to leave
where I wanted to stay..to live in..and bring my family here
I thought 2 month will be long enough to spend in here
But I was wrong..I did not have the opportunity to witness WIShes for many times..Its only twice
I miss the opportunity to see parade more and more again
I miss the chance to say good bye to some of my co worker
They are great

In this place..I can make myself even more comfortable to complete my job..because I like to see guest smiling because of our helpfulness
I come to know that the diffrence between Asia corporation and US corporation in a way that treating employees and managing the business

I actually hate working for the 1st month..its tiring..
but after i get acquintace with people around me
I am soooo looking forward to go to work
Eventhough its a double shift
Dot is always being so nice to me
I appreciate so much
On the day I leave..he gave ma a tinker bell table clock..Its so pretty
I still rmb what he said to me
"U are just like my daughter..My wife say tht too..we love you..Hope tinker bell bring luck to u..wish will come true..cause we know u like it"
And u successfully tear me up
I love you guys too..and I am quite wondering why u guys nv reply me in mail =(

Lots of thing..they just cant come to my mind right now
I Lived the most content and happy life in Disney
Evrryday is a meaningful day..I had something to do
I am not bored..eventho its tired..BUt I am happy =)

I will be there

2009-07-21T03:16:00.002+01:00

Finally I talked to you
You sound so tired and unhappy once u pick up the phone
It wasnt ur original voice that u Used to be
I am soo worry..and I was actually do not know
What should I say to you firstly
BUt luckily...we sstill talked...
Like how we always do
I know things just happen on you..that u not expecting it
And its torturing..theres only one way u can choose
I know how suffer u are..but i cant do anything except supporting you
I am trying my best to reach you for many days
Finally I did it today and I am glad
At least..I make u forget ur own situation for an hour
And u actually laugh because of my words
Which is so big different compare to the voice u just picked up the phone
I got ur words..
and please remember..Do not think any negative thought
There is always a hope..I do pray for u everytime
And I am really here..To listen to you
Forget about the commitment..tht will only give u pressure
I just want u to share anything with me when u need to
I do not know what may happen when I go back
But u still hv my words right now
I will be there =)

Dearest MOM

2009-07-18T23:46:00.003+01:00

事先声明
这篇东西不是写来弄哭你
>.<

生日快乐老板娘
妈咪
我其实差点忘了跟你说生日快乐
不是忘了你何时生日
而是忘了今天几号

谢谢外婆把你带来世上
没有你就没有我
没有你我就不能有那么多机会
那么多经历，那么多经验
虽然都不足挂齿
可是如果不是你的鼓励信任
我不能够独立
谢谢你一直相信我能够照顾自己

一年没回家了
我其实没难过
因为我常常打电话回去跟你聊天
我们彼此从不出现什么距离过

从以前很严厉的妈妈
到慢慢我长大了
变成我们可以了很多东西的妈妈
我甚至还可以跟你说“老板娘我想找男朋友”
我们就像朋友一样=）

现在的我还对未来很迷茫
我不知道我应该往哪里走
那一条路才是让我最开心和满足工钱又高的
我当然知道世上不可能够那么如意的事情
可是我会尽力得让自己目标明确
我选择了去英国，选择了来美国
就会好好地去享受与学习

因为这个机会是你和爸爸给我的
从这里面学到的东西
将来将会回馈给你

不好意思
我钱花很多=（
可是我知道我一定赚得回来！哈哈哈哈

妈妈要好好照顾自己
时刻记得放轻松
保持微笑

我爱你

让自己麻木

2009-07-15T22:20:00.002+01:00

我要一直看
直到我麻木为止
这样大概会心痛
也许比较脆弱
可是随着麻木
慢慢就会减少
然后不再在乎了

2009-07-15T22:14:00.002+01:00

突然發現站了好久　不知道要往哪走
還不想回家的我　再多人陪只會更寂寞
许多話題關於我　就連我也有聽過
我的快樂要被認可　委屈卻沒有人訴說

夜把心　洋蔥般剝落
拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候想你更多

如果你也聽說　有沒有想過我
像普通　舊朋友　還是你　依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說　懸著一顆心沒著落
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多　懂你的人不会是我
要怎麼負荷　捨不得又無可奈何
偶尔我想起你　胸口依然溫熱
如果你想起我　你會想到什麼

Wishes

2009-07-11T07:07:00.002+01:00

Gina show me the wishes music last night
Wishes is the theme of the firework in disney everynight
I listen to the song..Its so nice that my tears almost drop
Today at work...I watch the Wishes again
10pm is my fav time at work because I can Watch WISHES from my working place
eventhou I cant hear the music from magic kingdom
BUt the song GIna showed me was playing in my head
TOnight I understand that..why GIna said she is crying when she watched WIshes last night on the roof top with her collegue
Its touch..really..every wish will come true..If u use ur heart to beleive in it
That what I believe in too
I will definitely..go for WISHES whenever I am free..
I wanna see it..with the music
Not from my working place..
I wanna feel what Gina felt
=)
Happy working at Gasparilla
Happy chatting with collegue
Happy staying in Chatham 15101
HAppy having u all with me

Results

2009-07-07T06:23:00.002+01:00

Alright Ladies and gentleman
I got my result
My hand was shaking when I was about to check it
My heart bumping so damn fast!
And I saw it...second lower
Alrgiht cadee..U deserve it
Because U did not put all effort on ur OWN task
U did not try ur very BEST to fullfill the objectives setted by ur own
U play..sleep..and just being lazy all the time
So what do u still expect?
So..oh well..lower second haha accept it CaDEE!!
The only thing I am not happy is tht..
My operation management result
I spend so many days in Starbucks..
Spent so many money in there
The most effort I made
But i got only 50 on it =(
Whats wrong with my answer
Grrrr...

Another thing.
I am super super glad tht my lovely mates they got 1st and upper second
Which really impressed me
And add oil for those who does not get what they want
=)Life goes on!

2009-07-06T07:12:00.002+01:00

开始对自己的未来迷茫
不知道自己应该往哪个方向前进
不知道什么是最适合自己
经过两次的F&B工作
从上次在槟城到现在在美国
我都觉得每天上班，根本不会有期待的感觉
我无时无刻都看着时间
我希望赶快回家
这样的工作
我根本无法让自己一辈子做下去
我会死的
哈哈哈
可是依我的文凭
应该很难找到marketing or PR 之类的吧？
无奈，迷茫
好烦！

A Briegf update OF whats going on with me

2009-07-02T06:56:00.003+01:00

Right..Its been a very super long time
Shy Yi did not update herself about whats going on
I AM OFFICIALLY WORKING IN GRAND FLORIDIAN RESORT=Gasparilla Restaurant

Which i thin arghhh..A fast food restaurant operating 24hour
I get afternoon shift for these continuous 3days
I learn to make salad, Pizza (its really smell sooooo good!!), Burger (yucks), french fries (better than BK XD), and going to learn cashier
I actually hate USD because they all look the same ! Finger cross tht cadee do not make mistake when doing cahsier
I am actually thinking to change to morning shift..which i have to wake up 4 in the morning..but i got my rest of the day free
BUt..I really found tht iits comfortable to work with ppl in afternoon shift
They are all nice and firendly
I met Aimee and Stephanie..both of them are cool =)
Trying to figure out when can i go out with Aimee because We really had good conversation
Unlike the others which is only Hi and Bye~
We get free drink and Free ice cream which I am craving for long time
I got A strawberry forzen yoghurt today..And I am gonna try the pinappele ice stick next time..after tht will be chocolate with caramel sauce..muahahaha cadee u are fat!!
BUt the food in cafeteria is really awful...I dont like it
BUt I am abit lazy to cook myself and bring a lucnh box to work!
NO point cooking alone eating alone so lonely =.=
I had a good lunch with dou dou at home..she is nice =)
ANd she Love my vege!!hahahaha
I have good house and roomate..which I think I am really a lucky person
Was worrying that I will get some jerk and weird people..but thanks god they are all good
And I am learining..to speak in english fluently
cadee add oil~~Trying to Love my job
8 hours is really a long time
I got off tomorrow~~wheey~~THEME PARK ~go!

btw..I miss every single one of you..you you and you~~All of u who i know..
Homesick..UKsick...And for IRIS.. i am HKsick as well..LOL

I made wishes in front of the firworks everynight
Its magic from disney
And i hope my wish will come true
Eventhou one of my wish will not come true anymore
BUt nvm..I got new wishes!!!alot!!

Hey there..yea Its you..If u are reading this
I wanna let u know
U are included In one of my wish
I know that U are being not happy right now
I do not know what can i help
Eventhou I am not agree with what U are doing now
Bt still..I make a wish for u
When the magic kingdom having fireworks..everynight
And i want u to be fine =)

2009-06-30T05:57:00.002+01:00

就连最后那一点本来属于我的
都被剥夺了
现在才了解
曾经装得多么理智
是最不理智的选择
曾经包装自己坚强
其实一点都不是

一次又一次
一而再再而三
那样到底算什么？

2009-06-28T00:05:00.001+01:00

I am a loser..after all....

My name Tag!!!

2009-06-25T07:05:00.002+01:00

Finally I receive my Name Tag today
But the place where i come from
Written Sandakan,Malaysia
I guess it actually should be Sabah,Malaysia
But nevermind is alright =)
I request to change my language to cantonese
Because I really afriad If its in mandarin..Some people may approach me with some heavy accent china mandarin ><
Cantonese is way more comfortable..lol..
So..I am actually hving two name tag am i am so so exicited :p
Will try to keep one for myself
and i think i may try to do something stupid like
Today cadee is speaking cantonese
But tomorrow I may become mandarin
silly -.-
anyway I am doing well here..
Its just too hot..but I can adapt to it slowly i think
Dehydrate alot!skin peeling does really annoyed me..but i hv to bear with it
Looking forward to my job
in the Grand Floridian Resort beside Magic Kingdom
Hope it will be fine
I love to see my guest smiling and satisfy with service provided..
=)

Thursday, June 25, 2009 Magic Kingdom

2009-06-25T06:49:00.001+01:00

Thursday, June 25, 2009
Magic Kingdom

我从来对迪士尼不存在幻想
对我来说，它只不过是一个让我增加经验的地方
今天第一天算是正式的orientation
他们播了一些影片给我们看
影片描述员工对于看见每个客人脸上的笑容的满足感
对于一家大小来到迪士尼幸福的表情
其实就是一种动力
把笑容带给大家
让小朋友的美梦成真
的感觉真得很好
今晚看了放烟火
配合着音乐的烟火
让我特别感动
我无法形容那种感觉
满满的温暖可是不禁又觉得少了些什么
我偷偷的许了愿
=)
希望烟火会帮我实现

I never had any dream towards disney
Until today
After I had a great day with my Love friends
I started to Love disney
everybody are looking so excited on their face
And lastly before we leave
Theres firework above magic kingdom
I somehow feel amazed
And excited...together with the music
The fireworks looks more awesome
I feel so warm deep inside my heart
I finally know what does tht mean by "magic"
I made some wishes randomly
And I really hope they will come true one day
theres some emptiness hiding behind the hapiness tonight

I miss U

2009-06-20T23:27:00.002+01:00

Right NOw
At this moment
I WAnna go back to UK!!!!Argh@!
I miss my room
I miss Birmingham
I miss the wind and the sun =(
I miss everything single place which I had my memory
But right now I leaving them behinnd
And.......It is so unlucky me ><
Luggage broken
Electric Plug wasnt correct which mean I hv to go off soon (low battery >.<)
NO drama tonight
No windy cooling weather (its super hot)
Ah......

To my dearest Matess

2009-06-14T02:51:00.003+01:00

如果當初我選擇了去gloucestershire而不是birmingham
我們就不會一起生活那麼久
雖然有時要互相遷就
可是無所謂﹐朋友嘛
雖然以後真的不知道我們還可以一起生活嗎
可是我會記得傻傻笨笨有點小脾氣的你
記住﹐世界上好人很多﹐壞人更多
不是教壞你﹐只是不要太容易相信人啊:)
we gonna have great fun in states:)(FLORENCE)

少根筋的女人!If that day u werent been arrage to same room as me
I will not sleep with u for 2and half year and U are always above me!
We had fun in genting..Penang..and UK
Thank you for being so loving and bring lots of hapiness to me and the other
Hv some confident la! I gotta leave u for about two month time la
do not give up on anything la darling!!! U know I wont leave u alone
XD hugs (Cheryl nene chan)

如果當日我冇主動去問你地可唔可以同我同group
我就唔會認識你
如果0個日既hallowen party我冇去
或者到而家我們都會只是曾經0既group member
同你一起玩係最開心﹐因為你會大聲笑
好好玩﹐根本唔使擔心0的乜0野
我講0的乜野你都聽得明同埋真係好多野可以講
你一定要記得“羊來了”的故事啊
唔好太緊張啦﹐費事條頸又痛
我0的9月見啦傻豬Iris ^_^ (Fung Yan WUn)might really consider to 移民because of u!:p

If TIki Did not approach me to join ur group
I will not have the chance to meet you
Even though at 1st i really thought u are abit 串because u dont smile =(
But after that I know u are just 慢熱!
And surprisingly we are really 夾得埋and I love u so much :)
We gonna have fun in Disney and i cant wait to spend more time with u
I am actually feel so upset that we might not seeing each other after september
I will keep our photo properly and treasure it ga la
NO worries I wont lost it!! (Kacey)

如果jax唔係同你咁friend
佢就唔會叫埋你上來吃飯
如果0個個christmas假期唔存在
我0地唔會係個段時間多0左好多野講
你係係呢9個月裡面﹐除0左florence之外
陪得我最多既人=)雖然我0地而家已經唔同0左
但係學你話齋﹐以後會有0的什麼﹐我0地都唔會知道
有機會去馬來西亞釣魚啊!哈哈哈
總之多謝曬啦
你在香港加油啊! 一直都會支持你0架 (鄧瑋sham)-.-我搵唔到你0既sham-.-

If you werent stay BLock B cambrian with us
I will not able to know u
Even though U really like to mumbling like a mother or father
But i know u are really care of us and U are a good person
And funny as well XD
I will rmb ur lottery so no worries and Do have fun i'll see u in september
(ALEX)

If Alex Did not invite you to have dinner with us that day( Nine months ago)
I will not be able to know someone so funny like you
And because of you, I know more about some health knowledge,UFO stuff etc
And it is real fun to talk to you ;)
and i do really appreciate tht u actually do care about us :)
So do add oil and achieve ur dream
I know u can do it...DO enjoy ur summer and really hope to see u again in September
Or HOng kong?OR Malaysia haha both will do
Will miss u!! (Super Jackson Wong)

啊肥啊!識左你真係好啊
你份人冇心機有易開心
如果當初你冇黎叫我入你個group我應該都唔會認識到你啦
我記得架!你個屎忽鬼玩雪球大戰個陣﹐追到我PK
妖~哈哈
we gonna have fun In US la!!!hahahaha so looking forward
H cup baby~ (TIKI)

呢0個係壓軸﹐如果我唔係同iris越行越埋
我就唔會同你越來越多野講
雖然我真係唔知你睇唔睇得明呢的中文
哈哈哈but it real nice to meet you
And I do love the surprise u gave to us
I will rmb what we had joke about during my dinner with u and iris and walter in malting..hahaha XD
I will see u in 18 or 19 la :)
U are so caring to everyone and I love ur hugs (VALarie)
______________________________________________________________
I appreciate and cherish every moments I had with u guys :)
Thanks and good luck in future
Will see ya'll soon :p

Change/Unchange

2009-06-12T01:58:00.003+01:00

If Things remain the same
Are we gonna stay the same?
If things changing
Are we actually gonna move forward?
If things never change
What can we acheive at this moment?
If things are changing
What is actually gonna happen tomorrow?

如果一切沒改變
我們能否停留在原地不動?
如果一切改變了
我們又是否能夠繼續前進?
如果一切沒有改變
今天的我們又會是如何?
如果一切改變了
明天的我們能否更好?

庆幸自己

2009-06-11T02:52:00.005+01:00

庆幸自己还能看日出
庆幸自己还能看日落
庆幸自己每一天都会看见微笑

庆幸自己每一刻都呼吸着
庆幸自己拥有美好的家人
庆幸自己拥有美好的朋友
庆幸自己又拥有美好的一天
庆幸自己可以用双眼看世界
庆幸自己可以用心感受
庆幸自己还有健康的身体
庆幸自己能有来到英国
庆幸自己可以有机会去美国
庆幸自己还能在睡前为身边的人祈祷
庆幸自己每一天肚子都是温饱
庆幸自己就算一个人也可以很快乐
庆幸自己曾经快乐伤心微笑流泪

庆幸自己跌倒过，受伤过
庆幸自己学习着，成长着
庆幸自己被人家人朋友爱护着
庆幸自己行动自如
庆幸自己还能唱歌
庆幸自己拥有所有经历过的事情
庆幸自己心里充满满满的回忆
庆幸自己在待会的4点凌晨，依然听到鸟叫虫鸣
庆幸自己在不舒服的时候，知道健康的美好
庆幸自己在痛的时候，了解在不痛时应该感恩
庆幸自己还活着
庆幸自己还能在这里写这些事情
也庆幸自己能够在这一刻想着你=）
生命多么美好不是吗？
我们该懂得感恩=）

Daily complaining does not draw people to you but pushes those who you want in your life away from you. Be grateful for the place you are at now because there are others who are in worst places that would love to be in the struggle you are in. (Teddy 2007)

自然?習慣?

2009-06-10T03:31:00.001+01:00

是自然的產生
自然性的發生
自然性的思考
不知覺中的出現
發自內心的感覺

還是習慣性的去做
去想
去寫
去思考
去自己引導自己產生那樣的情緒?

I am Excited!!!

2009-06-09T03:08:00.003+01:00

I Am actually feel kind of guilty of my assignment grade
Because I dont think I deserve the mark
I　got B- and a C+ which I think I actually deserve a fail
Because I did them over one night each (due to lazyholic)
Sounds ridiculous ye?Dont do this at home!姐姐有练过
Its is tiring and definitely end up peice of crap work
BUt actually I kind of know how to do a better work in future If I am gonna study master..I actually proof to myself
Lots of journals is help!!! And the joy of reading journals..is actually when u realise that..the author are referring to the other author tht u read before!!

Had a good dinner with Jax Florence and Xiaoruo
LOts of FOOD upon jax request and we cant finish them..wahaha XD
Jax gonna leave and back to HK tomorrow =(
HK...sounds so far for me...
Xiaoruo said a sentence tonight which i think quite meaningful
距离让事情变美(distance makes things beautiful) and i do actually quite agreee but i add on additional phrase "距离让事情变没" (distance make things gone)
Haha and we end up with a bottle of Corona and some Clementine,and its sweet! :)

I know how u feel...Thats exactly how i feel month ago..
Trying to be Its okay but actually You Do mind~...
Thats how I feel after read someone blog
Well I write it here randomly due to my randomness
Ignore it as nobody will know what I am saying :p (except flo)

Chatted with Bonnie for abit
She reached DISney!!
She told me Disney is HUGE!BeautiFUL!and AMAZING!!!!

The environment is good and people is good
I am SOOOOO Excited after she told me about these
And SO SOO Looking forward..
Oh DIsney Babe I am coming for U about two weeks later!
Hopefully it will be as nice as I imagine
Eventhou I dont really like Cartoon and Disney Stuff..BUt I do like big Parks! BIg Building and Beuatiful sun summer and flower! :)

Due to my randomness..I been writting too much tonight which I Dont used to do so
Btw cadee u are fat as ur waist gone when u started to eat more -.- NO more Potato Chicken please~BUt how bout hv some Nando Chicken? XD

Neway...Good morning =) and good night!
Cadee go to ur lovely bed and have a great day out with Iris tomorrow!
Here I am~
argh the sun actually is already rising =.=

2009-06-08T03:33:00.001+01:00

Good morning and have a nice day!!!
=)
Good night and have a sweet dream!!!
=)

One by one.....

2009-06-06T23:56:00.003+01:00

Today after had breakfast with Nicole and Alex..
Is their turn to back to Malaysia la
Yesterday was Sam
People leaving one by one back to their home
I feel so so so upset
BUt on the other hand I am glad my friends gonna have great summer time at home
And glad that they are safe!!! This is the most important thing
We had great winter..Great Christmas..Great Summer..Great picnic..Great party..Great dinner..Great shopping..And I'm (we) gonna miss u all
=( and whos next? Jax and Iris.. ;'(
Im gonna stay with Florence
And we will be fine :)

Sorry Nicole and Alex..I did not take a better picture for u guys XD

2009-06-06T02:21:00.002+01:00

暑假开始
读完书的，回家
剩下的，也放假去了
今天同一个特别的人说拜拜了
在这8 个月来似乎每一天都存在在我生活里的人
让我看见努力不懈追求梦想的毅力，是可以成功
跟我分享好多好笑的短片XD都几开心
其实都几难得，在那么短时间，可以有很多开心的事情
我都很珍惜，每一刻在一起的时间
不开心的，我不会去记得
现在大家各自往自己的路走
虽然都多么的不舍的，但是我依旧告诉自己，下一次见面
大家都会是很好的
我由衷祝福，你健康快乐最重要=）
大家都前进了
剩下还留在这里的我们。。卡住了=(
9 月毕业礼再见^^

=）

2009-06-04T04:01:00.004+01:00

Had a great day today
Went Lunch and Shop with Kacey
and had dinner with Ken Kacey Tiki Jax and Alex
Eventually we went down to the drinking party and had great fun too
I actually thought there will be a wall of both party
But well alcohol does really help
At the end we all mix up -.-and able to communicate :p
And i am actually happy tht we 4 libra girl can talk!! hahaha
BUt i am sad and Kacey Ip can u stop mentioning tht we are not going to see each other anymore after summer?
Its SAD lor!!! =(
MAybe I really hv to consider to move to HK as Suggested by Iris
Thhts not a too bad idea..lol
Love you all ♥

Took this in BK using Kacey Camera
And u should let me know if u gonna take a picture with me
I should've do some make up =)
Neway I love this pic

To my dearest daddy =)

2009-06-03T02:10:00.002+01:00

衣服破了你缝补
校车走了你载我去学校
沐浴乳用完了你会去买
下午打包给我补课吃~尤其鸡饭
带我去工厂玩，然后去喝下午茶，吃maggi soup
小时候一起去游泳
小时候放学带我荡秋千
小时候租动画给我看
家里任何东西坏了，可以立刻修补
妈妈婆婆不在，你可以煮好吃的饭
妈妈在，你也会煮
会买笑宵夜回来一起吃
会说笑话给我听
从来不乱发脾气
曾经冷战2个月，因为我发了一个奇怪的脾气
辛苦努力赚钱，都是为了这个家
我喜欢跟你去朋友家喝酒
我喜欢跟你一起看电影
我喜欢跟你讨论最近流行什么
我喜欢你会问我最近有什么歌好听
我喜欢你把我放在车里的歌换掉便老歌=.=
我喜欢看小妹欺负你的样子
我喜欢你还会让妈妈托你的手
我喜欢你会愿意帮我洗碗（我真不孝）
我喜欢你故意把鱼最好吃的部分留给我
我喜欢你为了我们，责备表妹（哈哈哈）
我喜欢跟你讨论美女
我喜欢你会跟我说，什么男生不能要
我喜欢你包了个大红包给妹妹男朋友
我喜欢你无论有多累，只要工厂需要，都会待到很晚
XD

何时发现到其实你白发越来越多？
何时发觉到你皱纹越来越多？
何时留意到你工作回来更累了？
每次看你下午回家，如果没有饭就自己吃起面包来
我就心疼，虽然你一点都不为意
每次看到你的朋友一直叫你喝酒
我就希望帮你顶（可是不能太多，印象不好：p)
每次听到你咳嗽
我就希望你赶快好起来
每次听见船有什么事
我就好担心
上次家里发生了一些事令你伤心
我其实也很难过
知道以前车祸的旧伤还痛
我就希望赶快赚钱帮你医好
这些，你从来都没有怨言

今天你生日，我不知道现在的我可以给你点什么
可是我相信将来的一天
你会以我为荣
=)生日快乐
我爱你

Drag me To Hell

2009-06-03T00:22:00.003+01:00

Moral from the story
Nicole: Do not be evil hearted..U will be punish
Florence: A cap should be wear when u go for a horror movie
Cadee: Hmmm..NOt too bad but..scary -.-

On the way back..some disgusting thing happen
A dirty creature (ugly dirty man)passed by me and touch my hand and i was like holy shit and go to hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! @#$%$&%$^$#%@#$@#%@% dirty! ugly! uneducated!son of #$%#$%#!!! argh!!!!!!! I am phew......sienss
Should drag him to hell =(

2009-05-30T01:52:00.002+01:00

不再是你以为需要保护的
不再是容易受伤的
不再是你以为你应该站在我前面的
长大了
你今晚告诉我的
我的改变
我不曾察觉的改变
我们不再以从前的方式沟通
我的语气不再充满依赖
我认为那样是好的
我们不能一直像以前那样
我们是需要改变的
=）

Starbucks Revision Day2

2009-05-27T19:47:00.010+01:00

Low productivity today
As my mind cant really focus
And i end up taking picture around me -_-
Well I realise Starbucks is a good place
It can help to made a great day out of everyone I guess
I took some picture (I'm a pervert by taking it quietly XD)

A place for quiet reading.. relaxing

A place for couples and friends..The girl look super pretty and HOT too bad I cant take a photo of her..:p

A place for husband and wife (The man is actually carrying a baby in front of his chest..warmest scene of the day..When he asking his wife to come over after buying beverage..he showed her a warm smile and point at the chair and then pull them out for her :)

A place for couple..who need quiet time :)

A place for MOther and Children-The Cute lil girl showing off her new pink teddy and then she was trying to fit the teddy feet into her new sandals XD

A place for collegue/BUsiness PArtner

A place for tourist to sit down and exhange their thought of the journey ( i guess they are from thailand)

A place for Shy yi To read Journalssss =)

Look through the window..Bullring is Tempting!!!

A place for my Fav Caramel Frappucino..with whip cream and caramel syrup
Ya I know its super FAT

Get back to ur work cadee :p I m going to Starbucks tomorrow again XD

2009-05-27T12:59:00.002+01:00

不曾拥有过的人
会希望去拥有
就算是短暂的，至少拥有过了
拥有过的人
如果发现失去的比拥有前的多
就会宁愿当初不曾去拥有

拥有让人忘了珍惜~结果即将失去
失去让人懂得珍惜~结果已经太晚

=(

2009-05-26T21:45:00.000+01:00

你这个死没良心的家伙！
啊啊啊啊啊！气死林北啦！

Starbucks-Revision =)

2009-05-26T20:46:00.004+01:00

I finally made up my mind..
To get my ass stick on the Starbucks Chair
To get my mind Sitck with the productivity NOtes/JOurnals
To get myself stay focus to the wordssss and theory
The dark Cherry mocha taste quite okay at the beginning
BUt when it get melted after half an hour
The taste was abit awful and Kacey said its SUCKs..LOL
My focusing ability still need some improvement
I cant hold myself from daydreaming
And observing people around me as I always do =)
The most irritating thing that quite piss me off
is the couple in front of me
Non stop kissing and making quite loud of Kissing effect sounds >-(
Gosh cant u just do it at home?instead of making noise in front of me?
who is so stress of exam?wtf -__-"
Well at least I manage to done with my productivity reading
And now Im gonna get my ass back to work =)

CHerry MOcha & the couple in front of me -__-

Sad Dream

2009-05-26T00:01:00.004+01:00

Once again Today I woke up with tears =(
It been sooo long I nv had this kind of dream (Laugh/cry till wake)
I dream about my primary sch priciple pass away
I am sooo close with him even after graduate from primary sch
Until now I am still giving him cakes during his birthday
Mr Liu is a very very nice and kind man
All student Love and respect him so much
I dont know why would I had this weird dream
What I still rmb after I awake was
I couldnt stop weeping eventhou I realise thts a dream
But thanks god he is actually still healthy right now =)
NO MORE BAD DREAM TONIGHT!!!

过客

2009-05-25T22:55:00.003+01:00

曾经我把将一些人当成过客

所以分离，不会让我有什么感觉

可是当我把一些人，当成很重要的
并不只是过客

结果，分开将会是让人不舍

然而难保有一天

这些不是过客的人，也会成为生命里

一个小小的过客

人生不要太圆满

2009-05-25T01:20:00.003+01:00

今天Valerie跟我分享了一些很有意思的东西
有几个小问题
很值得思考
其实我自己也找不到答案

“如果你是一個蚌，
你願意受盡一生痛苦
而凝結一粒珍珠
還是不要珍珠
寧願舒舒服服的活著？”
现在的我，会是希望努力而得来的结果
满足的感觉，可以很饱满；可是或许以后的我
会是希望，安安稳稳的
平凡的活着就足够

“如果你是一隻老鼠，
你突然發覺你已被關進捕鼠籠，
而你前面有一塊香噴噴的蛋糕，
這時，你究竟是吃還是不吃呢？”
都被关进来了，与其饿死，不如饱死吧？

“早期的撲滿都是陶器，一旦存滿了錢，就要被人敲碎；
有這麼一隻撲滿，一直沒有錢投進來，一直瓦全到今天，
他就成了貴重的古董，
你願意做哪一種撲滿？”
我宁愿慢慢熬到今天，成为贵重的古董，活得比较有价值

文字取自於：張忠謀
我相信对于每个人，每个时期都会有不同的答案
我今天是那样想，明天或许不是那样想的
从这篇文章，我也看了几句很有意思的话

‘不太圆满的人生，其实就像把福气
流向别人，那不是很好？
若没有缺口，我们会骄傲
若没有沧桑，我们就不能体谅别人’

时时懂得珍惜拥有的
我们每个人其实都好幸福:)

Picnic Photo Shooting day =)

2009-05-25T01:06:00.004+01:00

The weather is performing very well today
I shall give it 100% full mark!!
Sun shining~and a Little bit windy
We went to the park behind and have a small picnic
;) some photo here to share :p
I hope can go with the others next time
All together
I do hope to go with you as well :)
And also Nenechan..Fai D come here la >_< I miss u so much!

2009-05-24T03:17:00.002+01:00

放手
才能飞得更高，更远

不放手
你捉住了一时的美好
可是却捉不住恒久的幸福

短暂的东西，有时比一些东西来的更美
不曾拥有的，有时比一些拥有过得更值得纪念

可是妈妈跟我说，对任何事，都要学习放手
有舍才有得

你舍了什么？又得到什么？
你得到什么？却也失去什么？

p/s: dear nenechan~I hope this is not grandmother sotry for u :p

树~

2009-05-22T01:24:00.005+01:00

每天从家里走去学校
路上的树都会有不同的面孔
我看过枯萎的，光秃秃的
我看过微微绽放的粉红花
我看过盛开的茂盛的绿叶
我看过发黄的落叶
我看过零零散散的树叶，像是发育不良

同一棵树，竟然有那么多不同的一面
不同的美，不同的苍凉，不同的绽放，不同的凋零
（我原本想说-更何况是人？双面人，不足为奇
可是我决定换另一个方式）
一棵树，都可以用那么多方式活出自己
我们身为人类，更应该努力让自己的生命，充满色彩:)

JukeBOx

2009-05-22T00:57:00.004+01:00

Its not bad to become a JUKEBOX XP
U pick...and it will sing the song you like
I learned to be a JUKEbox this evening..lol
its weird at 1st..but quite fun at the end

Rain....雨天

2009-05-19T01:36:00.006+01:00

People tend to be affected by weather
Alot of people used to feel so emo or blue during rainy days
especially when u are not In a Good mood
When U walk alone outthere
The wind blow in a sudden..
The rain drop in a sudden
U will feel super lonely
NOt even the weather will pity on you
My friend asked me in msn
Actually the rain drop because of we are unhappy..
OR we ourself affected by the rain?
especially when u are facing seperating
between friends..or couples
Rainy days make people feel super emo
So be strong my darling
Please be alright I know u'll be fine =)
I actually dont know how does the weather affected us
Because I will affected by it as well
XD

人们常说
雨天会让人郁闷起来
尤其不开心时
当你一个人在外面
突然下起雨来，刮起风来
你会瞬间觉得，自己是全世界最孤单的人
连天气，也不怜悯你
NeneChan刚刚跟我说
其实是天气随着心情转变，还是自己任由天气牵着自己鼻子走？
面临分离，雨天更是可恨
亲爱的，你要坚强=)
我自己也不知道，天气影响有多大
因为我也是一位，被天气牵着鼻子走的人
一个平凡的人

马戏团-小丑-杂技团

2009-05-18T02:36:00.003+01:00

训练，集训，跌倒，爬起再跌到
疼痛，练习再练习
受伤，复原再继续
成功，努力再进步
满足，欢乐，开心，开怀，搞怪，好笑，可爱，温暖，兴奋
都可以是马戏团里的小丑，杂技团带给我们的
无论何时，都可以逗得人们开怀大笑
暂时忘记烦恼
小孩大人都喜欢
他们的职业，值得被尊敬
他们的工作，不容许存在一些私人感情
他们的责任，就是让别人笑，感染他人
不开心，忧愁，伤心，心事，都不允许浮现脸上
只可以笑，选择只有大笑或微笑而已
什么辛酸委屈
只能吞到肚子里
心里到底藏着多少秘密？
自有自己，才知道
面具背后的面孔
其实有谁在乎过？
卸了妆的脸孔，
又何时真的欢笑过？

Blackpool Trip

2009-05-18T02:10:00.007+01:00

Went Blackpool yesterday
Quite a nice place but the weather really ruined everything
Walked all the way back to coach and get wet >_<
Well quite disappointed that the sea wasnt as nice as i Imagined..I expect a lil bit blue'ish' sea instead of a Grey one..
And i know what does it called "blackpool" jor loh..lol

Lots of amusement park..theme park..casinos..
Food stall..BUdget Hotels..Rock candy etc etc
Maybe I am so so tired...Therefore I just feel tired for the whole day :(
So so sorry to florence and Nicole cause guys I might spread some "tiredness" atmoshpere to you which might make u worried...
The most impressive thing for the whole trip was the circus show in Blackpool tower
Artists from all around the world are performing very well just to make the audience happy...The clown--->MOOKY is very funny
some parts does make me fall asleep in the 2hours show but honestly..
I salute their profesionality..They are bringing fun to the others
NO matter they are happy or not..the smile on their face is a must and they do it soooo well :)
didnt took much picture as I am not in the mood of taking it...
and and and..did not able to take few more pics with Iris Val Wing and Walter :(

and Thanks florence helping me to get the bear even though it failed
But really thanks XD

and it is real cute isnt it?hahahaha

晚安

2009-05-16T01:59:00.003+01:00

‘晚安’
简单的两个字
从小到大
都对我很重要
我不喜欢没有晚安的夜晚
我需要一个晚安
来让我安心得睡一觉
可以有些时候，并不是你要就可以有的

2009-05-15T15:32:00.006+01:00

Once If there are some "selfish" thought in a friendship
And it will soon noticed by the others in a group
And people will start to hold themself from being too sincere
Cause at the end human are actually self centered
Once if this happen
People between People will not be so nature anymore
It started to feel weird
And the wall between them, is getting thicker
Who do human tend to be so complicated?

人跟人之间相处其实很简单
我当你是朋友，就不会计较为你做什么事
反正，我们有来有往，就算这次你欠我
你也会还我
因为是朋友，所以就算你不还我
我也不会记得你欠我什么
因为朋友是不会计较为朋友付出过什么

可是人总是自私的
一旦一群朋友的某个人
出现了私心
就会感染其他人
一旦私心被发现了
朋友之间，就变得有所保留
不需要说出口
关系已经莫名的产生变化
随之，朋友之间再也不真，一道墙，也越来越厚

2009-05-14T23:08:00.003+01:00

you shouldnt have told me to find someone for a hug
you shouldnt have ask me to find my fren for a drink
you shouldnt have ask me to hug my teddy bear and i actually do not hv one
you shouldnt have talk to me purposely..you should go to bed cause its so late now
and the worse thing is
I am actually okay I think
But u make me feel Im extremely need hugs right now
Just RIGHT NOW!
Well...is alright..I go to my bed la
The best place to hide :(

I am just emo'ing'
So no worries I am Okay..Really I am okay ;)

"The struggles I'm facing.
The chances I'm taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking.
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most"

2009-05-14T14:12:00.002+01:00

Cadee Wake up
No cadee Sleep..COntinue sleep
No wake up..U need to have fried rice with Florence
No..just sleep..is alright u need a rest
At the end..Cadee fall to sleep again..
Again the dream..is so so so happy..
So so so good and warm
I really dont feel like waking up
To face the wall..My laptop..and the same old song in playlist..and the reality
Extremely badmood because I expected a sunny day!!!
GIve me some sunshine plss :(((
And give me some time plss

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married

2009-05-14T14:02:00.003+01:00

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.

The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage...

This is sad isn't it?

2009-05-13T14:59:00.004+01:00

I extremely do not feel like waking up this morning
Cause I can feel something bad gonna happen
But i extremely not able to continue my sleep
ARGH...
Wake up and stare at my computer
And we Skype
Ye Its time to let go
Lets just end it here..Before it getting worse
Nobody was wrong..It just doesn work
And why the stupid sun been hiding behind the cloud for the whole day..
I shouldnt hv let the "disappear sun" influence my mood
So i decide to Close my curtain
I rmb what u told me before "感情其实也是从没有变有"
So I am now just,,turn back to zero..But i gain a friend
I dont know how long does it take to recover..um i mean 100percent feeling so fine
But being a mate that can share everything..is better than a pair of couple who doesn able to share and communicate
I　actually appreciate...The time we had..good or bad
So Cadee lets move on..you will be fine FOR SURE ;)

See there's a sun actually XD

CHAMPIONS

2009-05-12T20:37:00.006+01:00

Still owe him a “CONGRATULATIONS” since last night
Was waiting him to text me during the ceremony
Cause I know...If there is a MIP this year...
I have confident that he will be the one
Because of his hardwork, his dedication, and the effort he had put into Basketball
As we all can see from his performance on the court
The difference Between 2008 and mid 2009--->IMPROVED
But well I did not receive his text during the time
When I came back to my room
I saw his personal msg..yea I am glad and excited because SamTang had became the MIP this year again..
On the other hand~wondering why until this time..you are still not telling me about this good news??
I hope I am the 1st one to greet you
But at the end I am not..
HAhahaha well...honestly Im sooooooooo soo proud of you are ur team..honestly I am sincere

CONGRATULATIONS CHAMPIONSS!!!

To UCB Basketball team-TEAM OF THE YEAR
And To Sam :)
As well As JAX
The sweat..The tiring..and The pain..worth everything

Distance

2009-05-07T11:20:00.002+01:00

Sometimes there are some places
We wanted to go..so much
BUt somehow..the distance...
No mattter I tried my best or not
its just too far
too hard
For me to reach......

小孩与玫瑰/ A kid and a rose

2009-05-05T14:16:00.007+01:00

男人：“神父，我想忏悔”
神父：“孩子，你犯什么错了？”
男人：“我欺骗，明明看见事情的真相，却欺骗自己不是真的；我贪心，明明知道再也不属于我，却舍不得放手”
神父：“你看见教堂外的花园吗？昨天有一个小男孩经过教堂看见了花园
就顺手摘下了一朵

园丁看见了，就问小男孩：‘小男孩，你做什么呀？’
小男孩说：‘我很喜欢花，我要带它回家’
园丁听了，没有说什么，他拿起花潵，浇起花来
小男孩看见了，就问园丁：‘你做什么啊？’
园丁回答小男孩：‘我爱花，我让它留下’
小男孩听了，似懂非懂，他把摘下的花给种回去
可是，为时已晚”

神父接着说：“要知道你该做什么事，其实很简单，你只要问问你自己，爱有多深”
男人：“我想我应该知道，该怎么做了...”
__________________________________________

Man "Father, I wanna make a coffession"
FAther " what mistake had u done?"
Man " I lied, eventhough I already know the truth, but i still lie to myself tht isnt true; I'm greedy, I know that she doesnt love me anymore, but I still dont wanna let go"
Father: " Did u see the rose garden infront of the church? Yesterday there was a boy passing by, he saw the roses, and pluck a stalk for himself...and the gardener saw it and ask
Gardener: ' Boy..What are you doing there?'
Boy: 'I like the flower, so I am gonna take it home with me'
The gardener did not say anything, and continue to water the plant.
The boy turn to ask
Boy: ' what are u doing ah??'
Gardener: 'I love them..so I leave them here'
The boy seems like understand what does the gardener trying to say
So he plant the rose back to the soil...But its too late"

Father Continue to say: "If u wanna know what u actually suppose to do, U just need to ask urself..How deep is ur love?"
Man: "I think..I know what should I do already.."

Sources: Defeated Queen Ep17
资源：败犬女王17集
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fsHDRQ8o3mA&feature=related 7.18minutes

I'm Impressed

2009-05-04T03:15:00.003+01:00

I am truely Impressed by Valarie tonight~
She uploaded a song sang by herself on Facebook
To cheer up peoples who stressed up by all the Assignmentsssss~
I am impressed that she willing to share
Impressed by her courage and caring
This is what people tend to hide or keep for themselves
OR do not have the courage to do so...
Or do not willing to share their talent
Like what i always do..I love to sing...
And so do I will record it down..To see actually how does my voice sounds
At the end..I will str8 delete it..Because i just feel thts weird to listen to my own voice..And it doesnt turn out like what i expected (I expected it to sound better)
I do not hv the courage to share this..what a shame compare to what Val had showed me tonight
Once again I feel so so happy and happy and happy because of the song she sang " Raindrops keep falling on my head"

Check this out ;)
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/video/video.php?v=97008331352&ref=nf

continue to work on my assignment!

Dandelion/蒲公英/たんぽぽ

2009-05-02T20:25:00.005+01:00

Dandelion flake keep flew into my room
I thought it was some dust actually
After I have a proper look
Then I realise it was some lovely dandelion flake
I never know how dandelion look like before I come to UK
They are actually so lovely
Wasnt In a good mood today..(stress)
When I saw the Dandelion, I felt so warm and its funny tht i feel like to make a wish.Which I been alwaus laugh at my fren who Love to make a wish.
I always say it is useless to make wishes toward some dead object
They wont grant urr wish neway~
But it does look very lovely..and calming..at least for today..I like them very much :)

蒲公英啊蒲公英
飞起又降落
再飞起然后降落在我手里
至少你让我今天觉得温暖了一点
压力搞得我郁闷死了
无所谓~多几天就好了

*有时沉默着，是最好的

Bitches

2009-05-01T21:43:00.004+01:00

Think they are the best
Looking down on people
Talk like nobody better than her
Proud
Back stabbed people
Thinking they are so clever
Fake
Mean
Hypocrite

This is what called bitch~
Thanks for bitches
You make me realise all my friends are angel :D

经过？路过

2009-04-28T22:38:00.002+01:00

沿途风景若美，就算匆匆路过也有什么好可惜的？
至少看过了也欣赏过了

沿途风景枯燥乏味，勉强留下，又何谓？
反正没什么应该被记得

Hv a look at it...

2009-04-23T13:42:00.001+01:00

眼泪已在眼眶里打转了，很感人的广告，呼吁人们关心癌症的广告

Collection of Ghibli Studio..Miyazaki

2009-04-21T23:32:00.002+01:00

Keep browsing in Youtube..from Yiruma to Stagea Electron..and from Electron to Miyazaki totoro..laputa..spirited away..ponyo on the cliff moving castle..etc etc..making me feel like..Wanna hv a Miyazaki MOvie marathon.. dim suen >__<
Let share some clip of those movie here..so NOstalgic 好怀念，好经典:)

My Neighbor Totoro - The Path of Wind (Vocal Version)

となりのトトロ -My Neighbor Totoro- A Cappella

天空の城ラピュタ：君をのせて

Howl's Moving Castle Trailer

Spirited Away trailer

もののけ姬

Ponyo >< oh i Love this so damn cute!

Oh thts too much for today :) Its time to go to bed

My bro grew up already thanks god

2009-04-19T14:46:00.002+01:00

[14:45:15] Chee Wen Jiun: i see those kid now 13/14/15/16 dun study..kasihan betul...gang can cari makan meh?zzz...tak tahu apa tuu susah..17years old wan work... after study also hav long way to go lah...no nid scare no chance to work...
[14:48:16] Chee Wen Jiun: if that is me...let them hit..after hit..they will know it..i tell ur dad u see ur dad will how
[14:52:58] Chee Wen Jiun: those boy now use gang bully ppl..next time they see ppl drive nice car pass them..back home cry

finally my bro know how to use brain to think already XD

Curiosity+Violence=Killed BEE by Shy Yi

2009-04-18T21:17:00.006+01:00

Yea I am A Curious Baby
I am willing to try different type of new thing
Things that I nv do b4
Things may be fun
Acting Violent towards insects is one of my interest as well *giggle
It been two days..Bees come to my room to visit me
I killed one yesterday
Trying to ignore the one today
But he keep buzzling around me..U are ANNOYING!
Once I saw he stop in between the gap of the window
"wahahaha" lets try the gap is small enough to snap his head off or not
SO..i close my window..once...open...and close again (Im probably insane at that time)
Actually I really dont know whether the window snap it or not as He is so high up there I cant see properly
SO i Stood up and hv a look
Omfg..his head and his body snapped apart by my act of violence=.=
GAp of window do really kill the bee...Hypothesis accepted
Here we go the picture

Photo Taken by Cadee
Picture completed by ChiakhaiVui again He make it for me..Kindly click on the picture as u can see the describtion made by ChiaKhaiVui and I do Like it alot!

看来我的好奇心，越来越严重
是时候多念念阿弥陀佛了
罪孽深重啊！
连续两天杀生
最近好多蜜蜂在窗外徘徊，今天昨天分别飞了一支进来
昨天的被我杀死赶出去了
今天的，本来我真的不打算杀死他的：（
可是他一直吵得嗡嗡叫
刚好，停在窗口上面的缝
顿时起了杀生的念头
我的好奇心，问我，把窗关起来，用窗缝可以杀死他吗？
我就立刻，把窗门关了起来
一次，两次
在爬上去桌子看看究竟
天啊，他的头和身体，壮烈的分开了 O.0'
而且，还分开的很漂亮，刚刚好
是有一点罪恶感了
>_<'
明天不要来寻仇啊

p/s: The bee actually is quite ging lor...till now not die yet eventhou his head and body tear apart (after 4hours jor la)...the body is still moving geh lor..scary

Shy Yi/Cadee Complicated/Confusing Directory

2009-04-18T17:29:00.004+01:00

ChiakhaiVui A.K.A Jichan made another masterpeice AGAIN.. hehehehe

But i hv two more additional to add
* Dont call me Ah Yi..only PehLing can call this due to i really hate ppl call me ah Yi..cause all over the street..Ppl who Named Ah Yi is too much!
* DOnt call me 8po if U are not Eva..Only eva can call me like this XD
*Dont call me Suipoh if u are not Kian Yee ;)

LOLz...Found something relaxing ><

2009-04-18T11:50:00.001+01:00

dedicate this to Tan siang Liong if u see this..noob LOL

I realise girl could look cool with guy's hairstyle but guys look LMAO with girl hairstyle.. XD